shifting

"I'm not interested in how people move, I'm interested in what makes them move." ~Pina Bausch. Intention. Direction. Motivation. Obstacle. Rhythm. Pace. Stasis. Stillness. Silence. All of these things in my body, in the memory of my muscles and my blood. Available to access, or to be denied.

But why deny? I feel like that's what I mostly do. Deny the immediate access I have to these qualities, deny myself the birthright of every living creature to experience the indelible joy of having a body and putting it to use. Pain, too, and risk. But so much sublime joy.

Getting stuck. "Although it is embarrassing and painful, it is very healing to stop hiding from yourself. It is healing to know all the ways that you’re sneaky, all the ways that you hide out, all the ways that you shut down, deny, close off, criticize people, all your weird little ways. You can know all of that with some sense of humor and kindness. By knowing yourself, you’re coming to know humanness altogether. We are all up against

these things. We are all in this together." ~Pema Chodron. Allowing myself to be stuck. Allowing...